It’s been awhile since sharing a beauty and style post. I did not think much of it until Jake and I carved out some time to do a styled outfit shoot recently. While getting ready and taking the photos, something felt unnatural. I did not feel like myself and had a hard time getting into it like I normally do. We tried different poses, a variety of angles and spent time trying new things. I still felt uneasy. I realized It is very hard to portray confidence through photos when you do not feel confident in yourself.
For years, my platform for public speaking, social media and this blog has been rooted in natural beauty and self-confidence. Losing all my hair in middle school made me seriously consider how beauty is defined in our culture and take a stand against the misconceptions. I have consistently shared that beauty is so much more than hair and physical looks. Although I care about how I look and present myself, the heart of the matter comes down to being confident in myself and accepting who I naturally am. These are some of the core values that I stick to day to day, but I would be lying if I told you I didn’t struggle with self-image at all. Because I believe vulnerability is one of the truest forms of growth and trust, I want to give you a peak behind the scenes.
These past few months have been an uphill battle of continuing to love myself and be confident in who I am as I think everything opposite each time I look in the mirror. When you share about natural beauty so often, it is hard to admit to yourself when you aren’t living up to what you are encouraging others to do. The thing is, believing I am beautiful is not a journey towards perfection. All the perfectionists in the house, raise your hands (just for the record, both my hands and both feet are raised)! This journey is about learning to embrace the skin that is drier than it used to be, the pounds that were never there before and the fact that I could eat veggies for the rest of my days and not have a six pack (those are overrated anyways).
Being confident in our own skin is more than shouting to the world I love my body! It is the quiet, day to day acceptance of who we are to our cores and celebrating the healthy, real bodies we have been given. So instead of looking at these photos feeling uneasy or wanting to edit out the parts I don’t like, I am choosing to celebrate natural beauty and self-confidence.